Relieved.

The killers: "When we were Young"

what I'm listening to right now :) and its on my myspace, although I am playing Tug of war with Jason Mraz's acoustic version of "You and I Both"

I LOVE GUITAR. Electric, Acoustic, whatever it may be. Throw in some piano and I am yours for keeps.

So Ive realized that when you always have a positive attitude even when you are in a situation you don't want to be in, that it makes things THAT much better.

I said today was going to be a good day the second that vitamin D hit my skin in the morning and stayed positive all the way through work and voila! AMAZING ass day.

Went to the opening of JACKS URBAN eats today with Lola and Staysh. It was sooo good even though I had Chicken Parm. like literally an hour before we went. And it sounds sooo good now coz I didn't eat anything for dinner tonight at school, I was busy...well kinda. But I am too lazy to go make something so I'll eat a huge breakfast tomorrow.

So what I was ranting about earlier about the friend from school. After 4 months we finally spoke. Miscommunication I guess? I think its more than that but I'm not going to look into it. I was turning the corner and as usual he happens to be the only person in the breakroom. Guhhhreaaat. Avoid. As usual on my part. Anyways he says "Marissa" and I turn and he said come here for a sec...anyways. long story short, he says its getting too weird and that he thought I was mad at him.... he said "Are you mad at me?" ummmmmmmmmmmm FOUR MONTHS WITHOUT A WORD later. Of course I am now! And i still am! kinda. well honestly I am the type of person to just leave it alone when its someone that is real and that that "real" is reciprocated, we've never lied about anything to eachother coz it is what it is , whats there to lie about? But whatev, I'm glad we are cool again, we are actually very good friends well I think so, and I really missed us being cool at school coz I ABSOLUTELY HATE TENSION. and ya hes a cool ass FRIEND and thats IT. for all you "wonder-ers". things are back to normal and now I dont have to mug his way any more. i swear im not a bitch. swear.

speaking of wonderers. good god I hate that if anybody hears I am talking to a dude that we are "talking" or "intimate" isnt that annoying? like fuck, I can't have guy friends? what the fuck ever,I'm sooooo not into dating right now, i don't have the time, and that is the honest to god truth, when i do have extra time i am sleeping. can't waste a minute coz i never get any sleep :( wiped the fuck out.

Jules is going to Korea tomorrow to be with chris. shes all in love and shit. he takes good care of her and i approve. just praying her flight will go well and that she is safe. im stoked for her tho, its about time she got treated like the queen she is after that DOUCHEBAG she first fell for did her dirtier than a hoe in a alley. 

okay well i am soooo tired. I'm out for the count. xoxoxox.