"just another sad love song."

isn't it truly blissful when the depression of old hurtful songs becomes triumph? I'm listening to old songs that used to conjure up endless tears on my pillow, on my sleeve, on my best friends shoulders-- and it just doesn't move me anymore. I sing them happily, the pain pinches my arm, but then I sing it through and realize the strength it took and the courage it took to get me through a horrible relationship with a horrible monster. and when my eyes move to the right they capture HER. the reason for why I moved on. the reason for why I won't let myself crumble over a self-derranged man. a man that has nothing to offer himself or the world. I am ME again. and that feeling is amazing, and it was inevitable. because I knew to trust god when I asked him to help me let go three years ago. if you are hurting when you tell someone you love them and can't do without them, you are making yourself a coward. take the courage to step outside of your shoes and realize what you are really worth. because your smile is worth a million dollars and someone down the road Will pay 2 million dollars to keep it on your face. don't be down, don't think about how good it USED to feel because face it; its not like that anymore. and once trust is broken, it will NEVER be the same. take the "what-ifs" out of your head and stop having faith in them. have faith in YOURSELF and trust in god and the plan he has for you. count your blessings. and be fortunate and thankful for the blood around you. yes, they may not understand you and your hard headed love for a person, but they can love you in a way so unconditionally that you will find the love you needed was in your veins all along. be thankful. be happy. you are alive, and well and healthy. another day is a gift in itself because you never know if you will get a second or a third. remember that a person is not your world, you let them conquer your world. you choose your fate.